your smile

your smile
is the summer
of my childhood
the beginning
of everything good
a brightness
that burns my skin
a star wish
that i have to win


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fluttering

when you are close to me
you flutter.
did you notice that?
like you have dragonfly wings
on your back
hovering
just above the ground.
smiling
from somewhere
new you've found.
and i don't mind
because somehow
i float a bit too
and don't want to come down.


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damn space

nothing is coming out right
i can't breathe a sigh
plunking letters on a page
it all plays wrong, smaller is my cage
rolling dice like a one-lettered day
my skin slowly shaved
i hate it more
this stupid fucking way
i can't be your only need
it is my own space i crave


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untitled again

there is no more
black water
just a dry graben
waiting for me

a parched stone drip
that just needs a drink

notoriously petrified
in disenchanted need

crying to a pillow
that doesn't hear pleas

eyes that see past
what truly is me

-(if only a drip
the goddess would send
i'd drink of the blackest
water sin

just to tenderly
feel again)


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heather

how is this?
the miles we go
laughing and crying
and letting eachother go

on and on
about nothing really

it was the best road trip
just you and me


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belladonna

is it the final touch
that lingers
like belladonna nightshade
how close i see your face


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to Papa

and as the children run off to play
i lean over you and to your stone whisper her name
the one that has a past and a reason to not be ashamed
and it is done
this vow i have made
to raise her from the dead
and to give your mother a face


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Marie

i like to think you knew you were going to die
you went and got your little one
you lied in bed with him
said a dark prayer
rolled your tears into his babyhair
and as your heart began to leave you
it didn't hurt at all
for your baby was there with you
saving your love


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still reflecting

your face we thought was darkened

but it still reflects light

the prisms i followed

to find you out

and gently bring you out of night

i feel this strange twittering

i've seen your face for the first time

exactly as i swore

i brought you up from this grave site

tattered but not the least bit torn

you smile

the smile in that faded picture by the tree

only now you smile at me

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she finds a fawn in the wood

she couldn't move
it was staring right at her
she couldn't breathe
it held it's breath

and they froze
one to the other.

and you could not see it
but the eyes of their
souls

collided.

it can't be written
they had no division.

they were one.
weak, new
promising.

and she leapt
swiftly over the creek

and out into the wild.


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don't

don't
just don't be so strange with me
the dogs outside are howling
very strange
usually they bark
but now they howl
like some primeval instinct
has arisen right under our noses

i'm ready for this...
don't be so strange with me

rainbow

blurry colors streak across the sky
the faded mark of a perfect day

your face is still glowing and bright
and your eyes droop into a soft sleepy way

it couldn't be greater for me
than to give you this gift

this unmarked, perfect fun day
showing you that though the world

is hard, there is always a sacred place
that can be found....to play


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where they bury me

and when you bury me
bury me high
so that i can watch the
sun set and spread it's sherbert wings

and then i'll climb back
into my casket
and live my dreams


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